White lies are inching further to the truth. This may be the line that's drawn to keep the truth from spilling out, now that I know it must never be revealed.
Without school to use an excuse, I had to tell oto-baka I'm going to buy materials to make stuff. Lately I've been making alot of stuff, and he asked why, so I had to say I'm making a costume. I had to further reveal the reason, CAF. Or as I told, Arts Fest, which is now becoming an external event. Feeding info little by little, I'd let him assume the worst, so that I know what info to deny. haha. I suggested I'm the one wearing the costume, which was opposed strongly. So casually, I said "I don't have to be the one wearing it~ anyone can~". Thus it became the lie which I will have to depend on to survive the event. He mentioned that I don't need to participate in the event, in his usual pathetic annoying whiny tone which I objected to with the flames of my resolve burning bright =_=. Seriously now, how can he say something like that and then at other times say he never interferes with what I want to do. What fucking logic.
Anyway. My worry is, after only 3 years, I managed to touch the thin red line. How many more chances will come by before I fall, or retreat? Especially when I'm making my stuff openly, chances of slipping is high. Maybe I should have my costumes tailored from now on =_= Even that might not work... ugh~
Enough of that, next entry must be on cosplay progress.
